Do you ever get that feeling where you don’t want to talk to anybody?
You don’t want to smile and you don’t want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don’t know exactly what’s wrong either. There isn’t a way to explain it to someone who doesn’t already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being along never was. At least when you’re alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn’t anyone who won’t take ‘I don’t know’ for an answer. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.
It’s the loneliest feeling in the world - to find yourself standing up when everyone else is sitting down. To have everybody look at you and say “what’s the matter with her?” I know what it feels like. Walking down an empty street, listening to the sound of your own footsteps. Shutters closed, blinds drawn, doors locked against you. And you aren’t sure whether you’re walking toward something, or if you’re just walking away.
I’m young and I’m hopeless… I’m lost and I know this… I’m going nowhere fast…
That’s what they say…
I’m troublesome, I’ve fallen…. it’s me against this world and I don’t care.
.A heartless person once cared too much.